... After we regrouped, Hien seemed to be doing poorly, both physically and mentally, and remained that way for the rest of the journey. And though I didn't recognize the person involved, Sylus had to witness something that was quite upsetting to him.
They are. [...] On my part, I was infected with something, so my main issue was worrying if I would lose my mind or do something to harm the others. Thankfully, that didn't come to pass, although it did affect my judgment in ways that could've hurt us had the others not made better choices.
[a light smile.]
Sylus, as you may have noticed, is the sort who does what he wants, heedless of anyone else's opinion. I'm very grateful for that, looking back.
[Otherwise, it felt like anything that happened to me was the result of my own failing.]
[honestly, even lucien only half-understands what was going on with himself either.]
... I am as well, although I wish I had helped Hien better so that he did not return... like that. [aaaaa] But to have us all return safely despite everything, even if not well, is a blessing in itself.
He most likely has the experience to... better handle it than most, given everything else in his life. Still, I don't imagine that it won't have affected him at all, even if in less direct ways.
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[ Go on. ]
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You're very direct, Mafuyu. [ha...] I've been better—we all know these aren't pleasant—but I will recover.
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... Do you want to talk about it?
[ She will absolutely not force it if he says no. ]
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... I am more worried for Hien and Sylus, to be honest.
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[ And that hadn't gone well for him. Understandably. ]
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... I went through something like that. Or, we did... our group.
These adventures of sorts are incredibly dangerous, for both the body and the mind.
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[ ): ]
They are. [...] On my part, I was infected with something, so my main issue was worrying if I would lose my mind or do something to harm the others. Thankfully, that didn't come to pass, although it did affect my judgment in ways that could've hurt us had the others not made better choices.
[a light smile.]
Sylus, as you may have noticed, is the sort who does what he wants, heedless of anyone else's opinion. I'm very grateful for that, looking back.
[Otherwise, it felt like anything that happened to me was the result of my own failing.]
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[ Kind of. ]
It sounds as though you went through a lot. It's not going to feel better, most likely not until you've had the time to rest and process properly.
But I'm glad all of you made it back.
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... I am as well, although I wish I had helped Hien better so that he did not return... like that. [aaaaa] But to have us all return safely despite everything, even if not well, is a blessing in itself.
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[ Homicidal rampaging and all. ]
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He most likely has the experience to... better handle it than most, given everything else in his life. Still, I don't imagine that it won't have affected him at all, even if in less direct ways.
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[ Surely she's equipped for this. ]
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Thank you, Mafuyu. I'm not in much of a condition to be keeping an eye on him, but it puts me at ease to know that I can count on you.
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[ Don't overdo it. ]
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