Weird. There are similarities to some of the other trips, but then there aren't. I thought maybe there would be some pattern but nothing's come up that's concrete.
The most common factors are meddling with memories whether that's outright taking all of them to replace with new ones, or new ones are replacing old over time, and then having to usually deal with tragedies involving people close to you. Either by killing them, watching them die, or killing them and watching them die.
Perhaps not so explicitly, in that I don't think our journey was directly testing that, but there were times where I realized I came close to making a decision I would regret, or that I might make one were I not careful.
Sylus was the one who immediately decided to accompany Tokinaga and the others back to the island. [a smile] He is a much kinder man than I had previously given him credit for.
[we also broke the cyoa because we weren't meant to do this but it's fine.]
Truthfully, I was ashamed that I had initially intended to let them go alone, even if I don't think I was wholly in my right mind, looking back. [sometimes... you really want to find treasure for some reason...] Still, I'm very grateful Sylus was there.
I don't think you can blame yourself too bad. These things are designed to make you question what you know. Especially when you can't tell at the time if the people there are real or not. I'm glad Sylus was there, too. Even if it does sound like a bit of a hassle in the end to regroup.
You never do at first. Either way I'm glad you all made it back in one piece. Safely. Which I know is a choice to say given what happened with Hien but you get the idea.
We should've taken better note of Hien's mental state before departing, so I apologize for that.
[but at least based off his conversation with hien, he doubts that lucien's attempt to, uh, self-sacrifice (which no one else needs to know about) aggravated it even if hien was getting ready to tpk when it was happening.]
... I suppose so. It's regrettable [to put it lightly] that we couldn't prevent Hien from dying, although his wounds had been severe to begin with when we left...
This is gonna sound bad and I know it, but if the wounds were that bad maybe it was better to let it happen and let him fully revive. Then again we don't know the consequences of that.
... In one of the early weeks here, I felt as though I had taken a step away from my goal. It was—unpleasant. We didn't know yet what we were here for, but it felt like it was close to slipping from my fingers.
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There are similarities to some of the other trips, but then there aren't.
I thought maybe there would be some pattern but nothing's come up that's concrete.
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What made you change your mind from making them, you think?
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Sylus was the one who immediately decided to accompany Tokinaga and the others back to the island. [a smile] He is a much kinder man than I had previously given him credit for.
[we also broke the cyoa because we weren't meant to do this but it's fine.]
Truthfully, I was ashamed that I had initially intended to let them go alone, even if I don't think I was wholly in my right mind, looking back. [sometimes... you really want to find treasure for some reason...] Still, I'm very grateful Sylus was there.
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I don't think you can blame yourself too bad. These things are designed to make you question what you know. Especially when you can't tell at the time if the people there are real or not.
I'm glad Sylus was there, too.
Even if it does sound like a bit of a hassle in the end to regroup.
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[It might've been my fault... I was the one who simply left and told them to do as they wished.]
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Either way I'm glad you all made it back in one piece. Safely.
Which I know is a choice to say given what happened with Hien but you get the idea.
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[but at least based off his conversation with hien, he doubts that lucien's attempt to, uh, self-sacrifice (which no one else needs to know about) aggravated it even if hien was getting ready to tpk when it was happening.]
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I feel like that's probably not something to apologize for when I'm gonna guess you guys had a lot going on yourselves.
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Even so, you had to deal with it for us, so I apologize.
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None of us regret that.
If we hadn't been there, you guys would've been in worse shape.
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This is gonna sound bad and I know it, but if the wounds were that bad maybe it was better to let it happen and let him fully revive.
Then again we don't know the consequences of that.
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What do you think that means?
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What do you think caused it?
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