[ He punks your ass sometimes and you just get sad about it :(
My god you don't know the half of it when it comes to happiness truly the kind that wraps around to also being funny. What's he doing. His happiest moments were with Obikawa (past tense)...... ]
It was already lucky enough that the incident with Obikawa didn't end up a lot worse like it could have. I should count my blessings, I know.
[ He just... has an incredibly difficult time trying to justify the positives when the negatives are like, well, people fuckin' died. ]
... I know in practice, there's nothing I can do, but if there is ever anything—even anything that could make things a bit easier for you here—please, let me know.
[he says this knowing tokinaga won't, and maybe it's hypocritical coming from someone who's in a state of "wait and see" for himself, but.]
You may not believe you deserve better, but... again, I truly hope that you get what you want, without it being entirely at your expense as well.
he can't judge tokinaga's bracket meta, given that his own approach to his duties, but still. there is once again the silent look of someone who isn't sure how much of that is a sincere answer, and how much of it is a deflection.]
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My god you don't know the half of it when it comes to happiness truly the kind that wraps around to also being funny. What's he doing. His happiest moments were with Obikawa (past tense)...... ]
It was already lucky enough that the incident with Obikawa didn't end up a lot worse like it could have. I should count my blessings, I know.
[ He just... has an incredibly difficult time trying to justify the positives when the negatives are like, well, people fuckin' died. ]
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You don't have to count your blessings. You're allowed to grieve for what's been lost.
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You don't need to worry about that. I do that plenty.
[ Many would say too much. ]
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Is there no one who can help you?
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It's my fault anyway, so I'll do what it takes to fix it.
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If there was, I would've caved already.
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[that's something too familiar to him already.]
If you find what you seek here, do you think that could help at all?
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It sounds pretty fantastical, but a lot of unbelievable things have happened to me in the last while, so why write this opportunity off early?
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[he says this knowing tokinaga won't, and maybe it's hypocritical coming from someone who's in a state of "wait and see" for himself, but.]
You may not believe you deserve better, but... again, I truly hope that you get what you want, without it being entirely at your expense as well.
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I like seeing young people like you doing their best. It reminds me I should too.
[ For them, not for him. ]
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he can't judge tokinaga's bracket meta, given that his own approach to his duties, but still. there is once again the silent look of someone who isn't sure how much of that is a sincere answer, and how much of it is a deflection.]
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I don't know how I should prove it to you...
[ Thinks... ]
...There's this girl I want to make sure lives a good life.
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A girl?
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[oh, wait, tokinaga banned him from saying that.]
... She is fortunate to have someone like you looking out for her, it sounds like.
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Man, it's really cold. Should we go back down?
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he presses his fingers to his temple for a bit, as though trying to ward off any incoming fever, before he nods.]
All right. Do you need any help?
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[ You should also come down... snow resort hot choccy for you. ]
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[*they may have to take breaks along the way
but at least it won't be like running after obikawa running after hak where he almost threw up...]
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I'm personally hoping it's less "should be" and "will be".
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