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[lucentia]

HELLO

"Greetings."

GOODBYE

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w4 action;

[vacuous]

[ Forces us to be in Luxuria despite it being neither of our scenes technically, so funny

Hewwo ]

[lucentia]

[hewwo although as my excuse for why lucien is here i suppose i should establish before jumping into mem that he is sitting on a bed, hand pressed against his head as he doesn't look too hot.

though he looks up when tokinaga enters during his checkups because once again TOKINAGA IS TOO GOOD FOR THIS WORLD AND WE DON'T DESERVE HIM.]

Ah—Tokinaga?

[vacuous]

[ Stop blows Tokinaga up. ]

Oh -- Lucien-kun?

[ HE DEFINITELY SEEMS SURPRISED TO SEE HIM IN HERE OF ALL PLACES but... ]

Are you alright? You don't look too hot.

[lucentia]

[to be honest i'm not sure if lucien has figured out that this is a love hotel.]

You needn't worry. It's just a mild fever, and it'll pass soon enough.

[but he ducked in here to rest for a bit...]

[vacuous]

[ Sweet Lucien. ]

A fever? Out here?

[ ??? ]

You should be in bed! Not this one, um.

[ For reasons that he is not going to explain unprompted. ]

How are you feeling? I can get you some water if you need a minute before we see about heading back?

[lucentia]

[there is a ? look on his face when tokinaga is like this bed sucks, but more importantly,]

Really, you don't need to be concerned! [waves a frantic hand.] It is almost certainly psychogenic in nature, I have them often.

[vacuous]

[ It's too big... it's too cushy... he doesn't know who would've been fucking in Purgatory but the chance is never zero and Lucien deserves better than zero... ]

Psychogenic fevers? Stress-induced? Still, some physical relief could help ease it off.

[lucentia]

Stress-induced, or if I get too worked up, positively or negatively, and I suppose my poor sleeping habits lately haven't helped... but truly, I'll be fine! It's simply a remainder from my childhood.

[once again it feels awkward to bring up his childhood frailty knowing now that tokinaga has a FATAL CONGENITAL DISEASE but yeah... while he's long past the point where people thought one bad illness would kill him as a kid, some chronic conditions you just gotta live with forever nbd. so tokinaga's fussing is actually kind of surprising? when he and people around him got used to it?]

[vacuous]

[ :O? ]

That's all stress of certain type, but that confirms it. Not being in your best shape physically makes the onset more likely.

[ Me double-checking the description of Luxuria so I can make a judgment call on whether they'd have a water cooler and signs are pointing to yes because it's so lavish here. Stay right there Lucien as he hobbles off to get him a cup of woter, get hydrated idiot. ]

[lucentia]

[weakly as tokinaga hobbles off—]

You really don't need to...

[AAAAAAAAAA HE'S BEING A BURDEN ON TOKINAGA presses his head into his hands while tokinaga is gone.]

[vacuous]

And just leave you the way you are? I don't think so.

[ Here, hands him his drank. ]

[lucentia]

... Thank you.

[takes drank :pensive: ]

[vacuous]

[ Stands here genuinely wondering if he should call Obikawa for help because he's not sure he can carry Lucien. ]

[lucentia]

[LUCIEN WILL FIGHT YOU IF YOU TRY TO CARRY HIM OUT PLEASE HE'S FINE!!!!!! LET HIM HAVE SOME DIGNITY!!!!!!!

but the good news is that tokinaga doesn't have to wonder for long because oops memory playing on the window now.

cw: suicide, heterosexuality

The night before you're due to give your speech to the populace to warn them against the witch, you finally visit Anastasia. It is bittersweet to see her, truthfully. You are always happy to, but you can feel the distance between the two of you, no longer the childhood friends you once were. All you have wanted is for her to see you as a trusted ally, the way she does for the other three (the others, who were there for her when she needed them the most, while you were treated as a stranger and left in the dark).

... In the end, you choose self-control (3:46 - 10:55). sorry lowe i lied it's 7 minutes.

............]

[vacuous]

[ This is the funniest pair of cws to put side by side in the world, okay.

There's a severe sort of rollercoaster Tokinaga feels here for a number of reasons, starting with the word -- witch. A glance that he can't help but throw back when the violent thoughts flow in, something he feels bad about the moment Lucien's true feelings push back against them. ]

...Did you throw yourself into water?

[ I can't tell if it's a lake off the side of the castle or something from this video though I presume as much. The question is sort of there -- did he wake up here after that? ]

[lucentia]

[honestly i can't tell either but probably something like that.

anyhow, lucien just stares for a few moments, as various things hit him.

one, he respects tokinaga a lot, so it's doubly humiliating to have the man see lucien at his most pathetic.

two, he kind of gathered that drowning means something to tokinaga based off that playacting experience, so he's appalled that tokinaga had to witness his memory about, well, drowning.

three, tokinaga also has thoughts on dying (such as not wanting to), so it seems pretty insensitive to show him a memory of someone taking his own life?

which is to say, lucien is horrified, guilt quickly seeping in, to the extent that he ignores tokinaga's question. he'd rise from the bed, but he's still holding this drink and only its presence in his hand is grounding him because he's too polite to just toss it in his emotions.]

M-My apologies that you had to witness that!

[internally screams.]

[vacuous]

[ Lucien your yandere arc... many people would love that for you. I guess that's why it's in your otome arc. ]

Wait wait, it's fine! Stay calm!

[ Also internally screaming. Just two nice guys trying to out-nice each other through the trauma. ]

[lucentia]

[honestly when in his right mind he is not actually that bothered by the idea of anastasia ending up with someone else, it's really the feeling-like-a-stranger insecurities that got to his head and then sometimes a witch does a bit of pseudo-brainwashing but that's how it be.

but he freezes.]

[vacuous]

[ Why freeze. He lowers his voice. ]

...Are you okay?

[ ...Points subtly at Lucien's water in his hand... ]

[lucentia]

[because he is borderline entering fight or flight mode but this is the deer in headlights interlude.]

I-I'm fine.

[



drinks the water? is that what tokinaga is telling him to do?]

[vacuous]

[ Buddy... puts a blanket over him. Not literal, but I am doing this.

He nods short but approvingly at Lucien drinking water. ]

Breathe, alright?

[lucentia]

All right. [breathes in, out. sips his water.] ... I really am sorry that you had to see that, though.

[vacuous]

It's really fine, it's no skin off my back personally... I'm just worried about you.

[lucentia]

You needn't worry. Even with my head clear now, I can say that under those circumstances, I would make the same choice all over again.

[so, you know, it's fine. not actually traumatized by the act of taking his own life.]

[vacuous]

What's that about a witch? [ And... Membrums? ] Can I ask?